Face BOOK ?

First and foremost before aku mulakan post aku kali ini. Korang mesti perasan kan yang aku tak banyak tulis post dalam bahasa ibunda kiter? Hehe. Sebenarnya lah kan? Aku tak berapa pandai dalam bahasa native sendiri. Hikhik. Dah semestinya beribu sumpah seranah or kutukan yang korang mungkin tengah lemparkan biler terbaca jer blog aku nih. Tapi nak wat geno bak kata orang di tempat aku membesar ni. Aku memang dah dasar tak serba pandai biler berkenaan jer dengan bahasa melayu. Haish. Buat malu kaum sendiri je. Tapi untuk menaikkan semula nama sendiri yang sememangnya tak berapa (bukannya tak berapa, dh memang pun) popular nih, aku nak cuba menulis dalam bahasa ibundaku. :) Sabar jelah ye?

Muka buku atau nama komersialnye, FACEBOOK. Beribu manusia mendaftar akan aplikasi nih. Kata diorang, nak mendapat lebih ramai kenalan. Soalan aku, Iyeke? Bukan nak mencari seseorang istimewa? Hehe. Dulu aku pun macam tuh jugak. Terjebak ke dalam lembah perkenalan facebook yang sememangnya teramat mengkhayalkan. Sampai aku lupa akan bumi yang aku berpijak nih. Agak-agak lah kan? Ape yang diorang akan jawab kalau aku straight-forward tanya diorang , "Ape tujuan kau buat fb neyh?"
HIHI. 'ketawa sorang2' Mesti pelbagai jawapan yang kelakar akan keluar kan? Aduh! Susah benar aku nak menulis dalam bahasa separuh baku nih. "Tak reti! Tak reti!" macam budak budak yang kena paksa buat kerja sekolah pulak.


Kaku sajer aku menulis. Tak macam ketika Bahasa Inggeris menjadi medium komunikasi kita. Tapi aku harus cuba. Gambateh! Maaf tentang bahasa lain masuk tuh. 


Berbalik kepada topik ; Zaman sekarang nih memang ramai pemuda pemudi siok bangat menjoining FB nih. Tujuannye hape? Terpulang kepada masing2 lah. Hak pengguna (double line) Tapi banyak juga komplikasi yang timbul sebab salah gunakan kemudahan FB nih. Gambar lucah, seks lucah lah, pukau. Lagi ape? Korang fikir2 kan lah sendiri ye?


Pernah tak terlintas di fikiran korang, kenapa ade yang terkena dengan benda benda macam nih? Benda ni sebenarnya biler dah sampai kat telinga mak bapak aku terosnye hah jadi hot story every night. Sampai aku disuruh mendeletekan FB kesayangan aku tuh! Celaka punye berita! Nyah kau dari sini ! (melampau)
Hehe. Iyelah, bile disuruh aje deletekan Fb aku tuh , memang lah sayang sebab kirenye aku membesar bersama FB tuh. Aku kenal kawan kawan yang sebagaimana sedikit tapi tak rapat lah di situ. Aku belajar untuk judge orang di situ. Kiranye FB nih banyak jugak lah menyumbang dalam kehidupan aku seharian. (aduh, over sangat lah) 


Benda benda yang buruk yang selalu diwar warkan dalam berita tuh aku tak nafikan, memang 100% BENAR! Pernah dua tiga kali jugaklah hampir hampir jer, sipi sipi kot berlaku dekat aku. Memang a definite danger! Tapi its up to every individu nak buat keputusan macan mana. Alahamdulillah, Tuhan izinkan aku dapat mengelak dari semua devil-ish acts tuh. Fuh! Takut, cemas, semua ade. Iyelah, macam our whole life is flashing back into our eyes at that moment. Kan? Takut, takut. Mintak simpanglah tak jadi dekat aku. Doa sungguh sungguh nih. Tak memaen. 


Kadang kadang kesian jugak pade orang yang nasib malang terkena dengan benda benda camtuh. Maklumlah, malang tidak berbau. Nasihat aku, KAWAL DIRI ANDA! Bukannya tak boleh. Susah, yes! Tapi tak rugi kan kalau mencuba? Hape yang aku merepek nih? Hehe. 


So, kesimpulannye lah kan, terpulang kepada setiap individu bagaimana nak guna kemudahan yang disediakan tuh. Sama ada menyambutnya dengan negatif mahupun positif. 


Salam.

SadNess

To know that you are sad is indeed a non-worthy privilege. When I see myself in mirror sometimes , I can feel that there is something missing. I don't know what is the exact emptiness I'm feeling. When 'I' the person who always know what's up with myself don't even know what's going on right now, then I have no place to turn to. I am indeed at lost. I am living and breathing but I am not LIVING. I am like a walking dead corpse. Even zombies have more colour on their cheeks. Mine are pale as ever. Even if you slap it 20 times over , it would still be pale. Asking me whether is that possible, well , you know the answer, FOOLS !


            Sometimes I wonder, can I really continue on living like this ? Or should I just give up and be a teenager without knowing her purpose of life? I'm at a junction which I can't just make a U-turn and find another road that I actually know of. There 'ya go everybody , that's LIFE. If I'd known sooner, I would just drop everything and change my life as much as I can. I'd actually do the bunjee jumping that I've always wanted to do , ACTUALLY GO and have a LIFE! I've been wasting my life too much planning my future and my LIFE that I actually failed to execute any of it. FAILURE keeps procrastinating in my little useless head. (at this point I actually sounded more depressed than a HOBO) 
            Watching others that really can achieve success in their lives really makes me think , I don't want to be like them. I've always though that my life is meant to be for something that is not as trivial as going to work everyday because we have bills to pay. That is seriously killing me. I am so messed up. I can't think of anything to do. I'm stuck!

Yea ! I was betrayed and abandoned ! I'm all alone now no matter what I do ! I keep asking people around me , what have I done that makes you people look at me as a disgusting thing that crawls out of a dungeon or something!? 


         Is it possible that I might sink even deeper? I am not scared actually , I would let myself to sink , I think that would actually makes my world better. I wish that is as easy as it sounds. I would love it if I were to sink . :(

This is what I look like most of the time. HUH!! Too depressed. If only I were as pretty as the girl in the pic, tho it's a cartoon sketch. Maybe that would attract too much attention. I really would rather spend my time more alone than others. I feel that other people just don't get me or my passion for the things that I love. It's hard or as others says it , I am too choosy, I just don't get easily satisfied with anyone or anything. I don't know.

I wish that this is me. Strong and tough. Brilliant and bold. Holding a sword as her weapon. Pretty and scary at the same time. But I'm not. I couldn't look more fragile and as cold as ever. HUH! However I try to be as strong and tough as ever, IT never appear as it is. I would just get depressed more. Any ADVICE ?
I need it !


Really at the junction where I'm stuck at. The road I need to choose.