Real Steel :: A Must Watched

A Must Watched Movie

Tujuan aku ke panggung wayang hari ini cuma nak pergi menonton cerita Don't Be Afraid of The Dark. Tetapi maklumlah aku ni kadang kadang memang dasar misinformed memanjang. So, nak jadi cerita tak keluar lagi pun filem tuh. Disebabkan ketagihan aku yang perlu diubati dengan menonton wayang ni, aku dan kakak kesayangan aku buat keputusan nak tengok filem Real Steel.

And!!!!

BOOOM!!! Meang dasar best tahap alam doersss sekalian. Cerita yang akan aku cadangkan sekarang adalah filem Real Steel.

Kisahnya tentang seorang bekas peninju dan anaknya. Tahun berapa aku pun dah tak ingat. Hilang habis ingatan sebab terlalu melampau best. LOL XDD. Waktu itu, semua orang dah memang pakai robot. Mula mula hanya untuk kegunaan or something like that. Tapi lama lama, digunakan untuk bertinju sebab kehendak orang ramai. Orang nak tengok keganasan, so jadiklah WRB. Perlawanan dunia robot sekalian.

**Ye, aku sedar yang aku hanya reka nama dalam bahasa melayu. 

Note:: Aku tak bodohlah bengap. Aku yang tulis.

Anak dan ayah memang dasar sama. Tak ubah langsung perangai. Bapak borek, anak rintik. Hah. Degil benor anak dia tu. Nak jugak gunakan robot dia masuk perlawanan sampaikan hampir menang kejuaraan dengan robotnya yang buruk tu, Atom. LOL XDD

So, basically. Filem tu a must watch. So, kalau ada hati nak tengok, dipersilakan banyak. Terima Kasih yeww.

Salam.

Fantasy:: Chapter #6

The First Day of School

                Early in the morning, the servants are busy preparing breakfast. The gardeners are busy cleaning up the yard. The chefs are busy cooking. They are all very focused on doing their jobs. This is an every ordinary day for the Kleins mansion’s life. Everybody is busy.

A loud knock on Ayumu’s door wakes her up from her dead slumber. ‘Um. Um. My lady Ayumu, are you awake?’. Ayumu wakes up in shock almost having a heart attack. She still does not answers the voice at the door. She gets up and scratches her head while walking towards the dressing table. She looks into the mirror and screamed. ‘AAAAAAAA!!!!!’ The voice at the door is dumbfounded and decided to rush into her room. ‘What happened, Princess?’ Ayumu is shocked by the fact that a servant entered her room without permission and is very angry with it. ‘Who lets you in? Do you have no respect for me at all? And it’s nothing. I just saw my face in the mirror and there was a bug on my face the size of your stupid pimple.’ The servant answers, ‘ I’m very sorry, Milady. I just wanted to know whether you were awake or not. I’ll take my leave now.’ The servant backs away and heads out of Ayumu’s room. Before the servant could pass the door, Ayumu interrupts, ‘Wait, what did you came here for? I won’t believe what you said earlier.’ The servant replies, ‘Um. Lord Hidekazu is waiting for you in the dining room. He told me to come and get you. That’s all, Milady.’ Sighing, Ayumu says, ‘I’ll have my breakfast at school. Let him know that. You may go now.’ The servant interrupts, ‘But, Milady. Lord Hidekazu insists on having you with him for breakfast. Moreover, I think you should have breakfast with your father at least before you head to school.’ Ayumu gets irritated by the servant’s babbling, ‘Who the HELL are you to tell me what to do? Am I not your mistress in this mansion? And what I do with my FATHER doesn’t concern you. Or nor does it concern my Father. So, if you may, please leave my room now. I have to get ready for school.’ The servant walks away slowly with disappointment. The servant is interrupted again, ‘Wait. Is Rikuo here?’ The servant does not answer but just simply nods in telling her yes. Ayumu turns away, ‘Would you please ask my father to get me my own ride? And tell him I won’t be needing a driver to send me to school. Oh, and I’ll be choosing my ride. I’ll let him know when I’ve picked my choice. For today only, I’ll use Kaoru’s bike to school. That will be all. You may leave.’ With that last command, the servant leaves her room and heads downstairs to the dining room.

Heading to the dining room, Miyuki just woke up with a very cheerful mood and greets the servant, ‘Hey! Ohaiyou!’. The servant replies with sadness in her voice, ’Ohaiyou, Miyuki-sama.’ Miyuki is surprised with her response.  Thinking that something might have happened, she asks the servant, ‘Ne, why do you look so sad? Did something happen?’ The servant does not answer her but simply shakes her head in a no gesture and walks away. Miyuki is very worried but then she finally realizes that the servant just came out from Ayumu’s room. ‘No wonder she is in a bad mood. Hmm. Ayumu is very good in making people around her upset.’ Uttering those last words, she heads downstairs as well to the dining room.

Just after a few minutes after Miyuki heads downstairs, Rikuo comes out from his room and walks towards Ayumu’s room. ‘Wonder if she is awake?’. He knocks softly on her door, ‘Mika? You awake?’. He can hear footsteps walking towards the door. Without a warning, Ayumu swings open the door, ‘Yo. Hai. I’m awake. Tsup?’ Rikuo was startled by her and gives out big laugh. While walking towards her closet, she can hear Rikuo’s laugh.

Ayumu: What’s so funny?

Rikuo: Really. You are.

Ayumu: It’s nice hearing you laugh so hard. Although for the fact that I’m the subject here.

Rikuo: Aww. Come on. Lighten up. I mean, you still haven’t changed much anyways. Swinging the door open like a fricking head banger or something. You gotta love that nee-chan.

Ayumu: HA HA HA. Laugh all you want, but…shouldn’t you get ready for school?

Rikuo: I am ready. What the heck are you talking about?

Ayumu: Nothing. Just that, you ain’t wearing the school uniform.

Rikuo: Huh! Hahahahaha! Again with the frickin joke sis. I’m wearing overcoats on top. It’s freezing cold out there. Didn’t you realize?

Ayumu: Oh. I thought you were gonna have breakfast with Father before you head to school.

Rikuo: Iie. Nah. Having breakfast with little miss I’m so happy every day ain’t really my fav thing to be doing. I’ll just stop by at a restaurant nearby later. What about you? Taking up the offer of having breakfast in the famous Klein’s mansion?

Ayumu: Good one. Haha. Nope. I was gonna head to school and maybe eat at the cafeteria or something.

Rikuo: Perfect. I was gonna ask you to tag along to school with me. We could stop by at a café near school.

Ayumu: Yea? Well, sure. But, I’m taking Kaoru’s bike. You think you’re up to it?

Rikuo: Kaoru’s bike? You sure you know how to ride one?

Ayumu: Are trying to take your own life?

Rikuo: Hahaha! Ok,ok. I’ll be waiting downstairs.

Ayumu: Hai, hai. Go, now!

Unfortunately it was all his imagination. The actual conversation does not go that way. It is totally different from what he had imagined. ‘Hmph. If it were actually true. I truly miss you Sis.’

When Rikuo knocks on Ayumu’s door, she comes to the door and turns the door knob gently. She swings open the door gently and looks up to see who knocked on her door. ‘Oh. It’s you.’ Her face seems upset and unhappy, unlike what he had imagined. ‘I wished that’s reality’ he thought to himself.

Rikuo: Hey. You okay?

Ayumu: Hmm? Ah. Yea. Yea. (walks to the dressing table)

Rikuo: You gonna have breakfast here?

Ayumu: No. I was thinking skipping breakfast and head to school straight away.

Rikuo: Alone?

Ayumu: Yea.

Rikuo: Why don’t you tag along with me? We could stop by at a café and have breakfast there.

Ayumu: I’m sorry but Kaoru told me to get to school early to get the school uniform and everything.

Rikuo: ……

Ayumu: Gomen ne. Maybe some other time. Ja ne. I’ll be leaving now.

Rikuo watches Ayumu leaves the room slowly and finally he decided to walk downstairs. He sits down on one of the luxurious looking couch in the living room and puts on his shoes. He is thinking to himself, ‘Why have you become like that? We were so close before. Now, it seems that you are so far away from me, Mika.’ With that last thought, he heads outside where the driver has been waiting for him for the past half an hour. He takes one last look at the mansion and gets in the car.

Ayumu heads to the garage at the backyard to get Kaoru’s old bike. While she is getting the bike, Hidekazu decided to show up to greet his daughter.

Hidekazu: What’s with getting your own ride thing?

Ayumu: I just don’t wanna be sent to school. If you can’t provide one, then I’ll just take the bus or train.

Hidekazu: No. that’s not what I meant.

Ayumu: Then?

Hidekazu: Hmm. Alright. I’ll send a servant to accompany you to get your ride this very evening.

Ayumu: Thank you, father. I appreciate it. I’ll take my leave now.

Hidekazu: Wait.

Ayumu: Yes?

Hidekazu: Have you seen Kaoru anywhere? I haven’t seen him all morning.

Ayumu: He told me that he is waiting for me at school. To settle all the stuff.

Hidekazu: Oh, yes. I did tell him to do that.

Ayumu: Anything else?

Hidekazu: Yes. Please keep an eye for Rikuo. He can’t get into anymore troubles. He is on the edge of expulsion.

Ayumu: I will father. I’ll be leaving now. Goodbye.

Hidekazu: Yes.  Goodbye. Take care of yourself.

With that, Ayumu rides away on her brother’s motorcycle. Her father watches her as she leaves the front gate of the mansion. After that, he leaves the front yard and heads upstairs.

After a few minutes, Ayumu finally arrives at the school. Once she enters the school, all eyes are on her and do not budge. All the students there thought that she was a guy, a very cool guy. But to their disappointment, she is a female. But it does not change the fact that all eyes were on her that day. So she takes off her helmet and walks into the school hall without the school uniforms. She can hear students and teachers are whispering to each other.

Student A: Hey. Who’s that?

Student B: I don’t know. Haven’t seen her around. By the look of that, she can’t be a student here.

Student C: Ya’ think so?

Students A, B, C: Hahahaha.

Student D: I heard that she is close with Rikuo Klein.

Student A: Whaa---?? Seriously? How the heck is a girl like that get close to the most popular guy in school?

Student E: Hey guys. Well, I heard that she is one of the family members of the Klein tribe.

Student C: No kidding. Wai--!! So she’s a student here?

Student E: Yea. I heard that she just moves from United States. She was studying overseas for a few years before she came back. And---

Students: And what???

Student E: Well, I heard that she came back out of her father’s orders.

Student A: No way. Like a command kind of way?

Student B: Yikes. That gives me the creeps.

Student C: yea, totally.

Teacher A: Hey. Isn’t that the student that you were talking about?

Teacher B: (spits out coffee) Where, where!?

Teacher C: There. Sheesh! Do you have to spray it?

Teacher A: Well?

Teacher B: Yea. That’s her. The one and only Ayumu Klein.

Teacher C: Wow. The whole Klein tribe is in this school. The school’s gonna get so much publicity.

Teacher A: yea, great for the principal.

Teachers: Hahahaha.

Ayumu enters the school office to meet up with her brother, Kaoru. She has been irritated by all of the gossiping worms around the school. She can’t believe that even the teachers are just the same as the students. Kaoru greets her because she seems like she is restless.

Kaoru: Yo. You look tired.

Ayumu: Try going out there.

Kaoru: Haha. Gotta get used to it lil sis.

Ayumu: As if.

Kaoru: Here, Your school uniform and everything. The school’s counselor will guide you and give you anything you need. I have to go now.

Ayumu: Wait.

Kaoru: Yea?

Ayumu: Where’s Rikuo’s class?

Kaoru: Hm. I think he’s at 3-1. Why?

Ayumu: Nothing. I just wondered.

Kaoru: Oh, ok. To think of it. It’s the same as your class. Well, good luck. See you at home.

Ayumu: Ah. Yea. See ya.

‘We’re in the same class? Maybe we can be like before again.’ After that, Ayumu heads to the changing room and change into the school uniform. The school counselor takes her to her class. When she is introduced to the whole class, the boys are very intimidated by her. They are all saying that she is very beautiful but have very cold eyes.

‘How would this year turn out to be? Hmm. I’ll just have to know the hard way.’

Wahaha.

Well, since I'm at my sister house and i've got nothing better to do. I'm gonna continue writing chapter 6 tonight and maybe finishes it by tomorrow and I said, MAYBE. yea. Being here is so damn boring cause it aint my house and I don't get to watch my cabel. Only normal TV. Talk about bored to death. Wahaha. Well. Hope you like it. C'ya!

Fantasy:: Chapter #5

The Encounter

While his family is having dinner, Kaoru goes out to meet this mystery informer that sent him an email earlier. He heads out to the bus stop not far away from the mansion. While waiting there, he remembers what his father told him when he was summoned. He just can't believe his ears when his father said those things. It was like it was a nightmare. "But I'll get some answers tonight. I'm sure of it."

His lamentation is awaken by the sound of the bus driver's voice, "Hey! Are you coming or what!?" Kaoru shakes his head as if he were woken up from a long sleep and replies, "Ah, yes yes!" Getting on the bus, he turns towards the bus driver and apologizes. The bus driver just nods and told him to get a seat or otherwise he would fall all over the bus when the bus starts to move.

After half an hour, he finally arrives at a cafe downtown called 'Rising Moon'. It was more like a private club rather than a cafe actually. Full of rich people from all over the city. He is rather surprised by the look of the 'cafe'. It seems different than what he actually expected it would be. Nevertheless, he heads in without hesitation.

A man waves at him at the counter to head there. He didn't wave wave back, instead, he nods and makes his way over there. The man at the counter told him that a guy left a message to tell Kaoru to meet him at the back alley. But when Kaoru asks the man at the counter why, he only replies, 'I'm sorry, but I don't know.' Dissapointed by the negative reply, he heads over to one of the tables and sits down. He starts to wonder why meet at the back alley and not here. It just seems too weird to be meeting at a place like that. Pondering that in his mind, he calls a waiter and ordered some coffee. 'Waiter! Um, hi. Can I get a double expresso please?'. The waiter nods and walks away. Kaoru decided to send a friend of his an email. He takes out his phone and typed something and sends it real quick.

After sipping the coffee couple of times, his phone rings. It is a reply from his friend.

'I think you shouldn't go over there. It seems too suspicious. Moreover, you can find out yourself by asking your father. Going against your father does not sounds like good thing. He is Lord Klein after all. I'm just giving you suggestions. It's up to you to make up your own mind.' End of text.

After reading the email, he decided to give his friend a call.

Kaoru: Yo. Ya free?

Friend: Thought you'd never ask. Haha.

Ending his call, he heads over to the counter and paid the bills. The man at the counter asks him a very suspicious question, 'Umm. I see you haven't gone to meet your friend at the back alley. Is everything okay?'. Kaoru replies, 'Nah. I'm just taking it easy. Your coffee here is very good. Here's a tip.' Kaoru then walks away towards the entrance while thinking that it's very suspicious for him to be asked like that. He turns around and stares at the man at the counter hoping that he would make out of it as something. Figuring that it is just some stupid move to be made, he heads outside. A deep, big voice startled him, 'Yo. Been here often?'

He turns around and sees that it's his friend, Ryuu, he is very irritated. 

Kaoru: Tch. It's you. Could you been more suspicious?

Ryuu: Haha. Can't believe it that the Kaoru I know would be scared by a little trivial thing like this. Now, that's entertainment. LOL.

Kaoru: Laugh all you want but I'm getting suspicious. He would never asks to meet up at the back alley.

Ryuu: Think something bad might've happen to him?

Kaoru: There's only one way to find out. Up to it?

Ryuu: Y'knw I'm always up to it. Tch.

After ending the conversation, both of them head to the back of the alley where the mysterious informer asks to meet.

On the other side of the town, Rikuo Klein is walking aimlessly through the city of Tokyo. Feeling irritated by his father, he feels a little guilty towards his twin sister, Ayumu. 'I'm sorry Mika.' On that thought he ponders over himself to make an atonement when he first saw Ayumu again. 'Seems like no one's here. Yet.' He enters a room that seems to  be his. He takes a few clothes and stuff it into a backpack. Before he heads out, he noticed a picture of his lost brother and his dead mother. He walks towards the picture. ' Mom, Shin. I'm very confused right now. I don't know what to do. Ayumu is back by the way. That makes a little out of my day today. But still. Father...' sighing, he heads out of the dorm. 

A girl comes up to Rikuo and starts to ask him, 'Rikuo is that you?'. Rikuo is very surprised and replies, 'Who are you? And what are you doing here? Only students can enter this place.' The girl replies, 'It's me, Aoi. Umm. Can we go sit somewhere and talk for a bit?' Rikuo looks at his watch and decided to agree to her request. So, they make their way to a near by park. Rikuo sits on the swing and Aoi sits on the see-saw. Aoi is very nervous and starts the conversation.

Aoi: Um. Um. What were you doing back at the dorm? I thought you went home.

Rikuo: Ah, I was getting my clothes. And....I forgot a few important stuff.

Aoi: Oh. Sorry, I didn't mean to pry.

Rikuo: It's okay. What about you? What WERE you doing back at the dorm? You don't even live there.

Aoi: Umm. Uhhh. I-I-I was waiting for you.

Rikuo: Don't make me laugh Aoi. It doesn't make sense. Now, I get it if you don't wanna tell but what's the point of 'talking a bit'. What do you want?

Aoi: Urgh! It's not that I don't wanna tell and--and why can't you be a bit more kind? It's always like this with you. No one can ever get close to you. Not even me! Your own childhood friend!

Rikuo: I'm sorry. It's been a very bad day today.

Aoi: Uhh. It's ok. But Maybe you should give em a chance.

Rikuo: Them? Who are they?

Aoi: You didn't even listen to me. Huh. I give up.

Rikuo: What did you say? I'm sorry for being an ass today or when ever but my family ain't loving like yours so if you ain't happy with it, just beat it. Leave my back alone.

Rikuo gets up and starts to walk away but Aoi stops him.

Aoi: I'm sorry Rikuo but, but... Just let me be close to you more. Tell me all your frustrations and sadness. You can't bear all of this alone. I-I-I want to be there for you!

Rikuo: Why!? I just don't get it. It ain't your stuff to worry about. So why?

Aoi: I-I-I LOVE YOU! Rikuo, I love you.

Rikuo is shocked hearing that from Aoi, his childhood friend. He could not believe his ears and walks away.

Aoi: Wait! Rikuo! Wait!

Rikuo turns around and says.

Rikuo: I think you need to go home and get some rest.

Aoi is very dissapointed and tears starts rolling down on her cheeks. To add on her sadness, Rikuo just keep ignoring her and keeps walking away. 

'Huh...She seems so weird today. Love? What is love? Tch. Stupid girl.' He thought to himself. He decided to head over to the mansion as quickly as possible. When he reaches home, he sees that Kaoru, is sitting outside on the stairs looking pale and worried. He walks over and asks, ' Tsup? You look offal. What happened?' Kaoru just replies, 'Nothin. It's just not my day today.' Kaoru stands up and enters the mansion without explaining further. Rikuo thinks that is very suspicious of his brother's attitude towards him. He is usually very friendly and cheerful just like the annoying Miyuki. He decided to leave it alone and heads to the guest room.

Persoalan, Perlukah?

Macam yang tertera di atas, perlukah? Perlukah kita sentiasa nak bergaduh dan mencari salah orang lain? Perlukah kita sentiasa merasa tidak cukup dan merasa cemburu dengan kelebihan dan kesenangan orang lain? Perlukah kita sentiasa mengumpat dan mencaci orang yang kita merasa tidak suka? Perlukah? Persoalannya, perlukah?

Pernah terfikir apa yang akan terjadi bila kita mengeluarkan kata kata yang menyakitkan hatinya yang sememangnya kita lemparkan untuk melemahkan semangatnya? Pernah terfikir mungkin suatu hari nanti semua perbuatan kita itu akan berbalik kepada kita? Pernah terfikir jikalau perbuatan kita itu mungkin memusnahkan hidupnya? Atau mungkin itu yang kita inginkan? Kemusnahan hidup orang lain?

Sanggupkah kita melihat dirinya merana atas kesalahan yang tidak pernah berkaitan dengan dirinya? Sanggupkah kita menanggung dosa perbuatan kita yang tidak mungkin terampun akibat keangkuhan diri kita? Sanggupkah kita melihat anak anak, cucu cucu kita pula yang seterusnya menanggung akibat perbuatan kita itu? Sanggupkah kita?

Mampukah kita terus hidup dalam kebencian dan kesedihan? Tidakkah ingin diri itu untuk mengecapi kebahagiaan? Benar? Kita semua inginkan kebahagiaan hidup. Jadi, bertolak ansur lah dan sentiasa maaf memaafi. Bye.

Salam.

Masa Silam

Nak lupakan masa silam memang susah kalau ia ada impak terhadap diri atau hidup. Biar masa yang gembira mahu pun masa yang pedih. Tak de beza. Yang gembira susah nak dilupakan sebab membawa seribu kenangan manis. Yang pedih, membuatkan kita tak boleh nak lepaskan dan maafkan diri sendiri. Ya. Ada tujuan lah aku tulis ni. SABAR. Ha. Kan?


Masa silam aku penuh dengan kekesalan. Kerana apa?
Simple to put. Aku buang masa dengan angan angan yang tak ke mana yang hanya membawa aku ke total destruction of my life. Well. Tak delah sampai betul betul hancur. Cuma tak kesampaian aje.


Aku leka dengan fantasi percintaan monyet ala ala original a.k.a. aku ingat aku pandai sangat. Gedik. Sekarang? Padan muka. Kena lah kat batang hidung. Orang nasihat tak nak dengar. Eh, jap jap. Bukan bermakna aku terlanjur, atau pun mengandung. Cuma terlanjur obses dengan percintaan monyet yang takde tujuan je. That's all. Ha, kan? Otak biru teramat manusia ni kadang kadang. Buang jauh jauh. Cepat!


OK. Berbalik kepada cerita asal aku. Aku ni nak dikatakan lawa, TAK. Nak dikatakan comel, TAK jugak. Nak dikatakan ada rupa tu, TAK la sangat. Biasa biasa je. Kalau aku lawa macam Karina Kapoor ke, dah kau nampak aku berlari lari bagaikan nampak hantu dikejar. Ni pun TAK. So, aku hanya seorang gadis biasa yang ingin capai semua matlamat dalam hidup, jaga family yang semakin bertambah ni. Tak, aku masih belum kahwin. SIMPLE. Kan?


So. Percintaan monyet yang membuatkan aku alpa pada bumi nyata yang aku berpijak ni. Truce. Tak tipu. Aku tak lah seorang master dalam bab bab romance ni, tak juga arif dalam hal hal memikat seseorang jejaka. Jadi ku biarkan sang lelaki mengejar aku dan meng'ayat' aku. Sampai lah aku clueless tahap alam. Kalau dulu sang jejaka dia sanggup mati demi aku, bulat aje mata aku mati matian aku percaya. Naif, kan? Huh. Kan bagus kalau hidup ni disertakan sekali dengan manual yang beri kita panduan nak hadapi segala rintangan hidup dan macam mana nak lalui tanpa perlu sakit. How I wish it was that easy. Tapi, pengalaman mematangkan seseorang itu. Betul, kan?


Pengalaman aku menceritakan tentang seorang mamat A ni. Tak ensem taw pun bergaya tau pun ada ciri ciri yang mampu bersaing dengan aku la. Tup. Memang aku tak ada hati langsung kat mamat A ni. Sikit pun tak. Nak pandang dia pun hati aku ni tak hingin tahap dewa. Orang cakap kita tak akan dapat pernah mengagak orang yang kita akan jatuh hati dengan sebenarnya. Aku setuju. 100%. Tapi dalam kes mamat A ni. Huh. Tak mungkin, No way, Hell No. Dia ini seperti devil. Paham? Devil, Satan, Monster, Creature, Evil presence. Apa apa jelah yang mampu describe dia ni.


Cerita ni luar sikit dari kepercayaan semua orang. Mungkin ada yang tak mampu untuk menerimanya tetapi ini kisah benar. Terjadi pada aku. Sumpah. Kalau tak percaya, tak apa, aku bukannya tulis ni nak meyakinkan orang lain, just simply letting out my feelings. 


Mula mula aku jumpa dia. OMG. Bau badan dia yang busuk. Muka yang memang 'Tak boleh blah'. Perangai yang memang gedik dan macam monyet/kera. Pakaian yang memang tak kemas langsung. Macam orang yang menganggur tidur tepi jalan. Serius. Aku tak tipu. Bukan mengutuk. Sekadar kenyataan. Memang not my type at all. Entah macam mana aku boleh terpikat dengan dia. Well, here goes.


Aku seorang yang amat bongkak and degil. Tak pernah pedulikan orang lain dan juga sadis. Mulut boleh tahan juga lah. Tapi bukan bab bab mengumpat, bab bab pertahankan apa yang aku percaya. Mamat A ni, datang dalam kelas kawan aku satu hari ni. Dia juga kawan kepada bekas bf kawan aku yang sorang lagi tu. Bekas bf kawan aku tuh, memang ada rupa tapi aku menyampah tengok muka dia. Mungkin sebab he's a playa from another planet. Tiba tiba mamat A ni datang terus sapa aku. Hi. Dalam hati aku, 'Ceh. Sapa dia ni tetiba hi hi kat aku. Ingat dia sapa? Nyampah aku.' Ye ye, aku memang sombong, angkuh. Tak payah nak kasi tau. 


So. Masa tu aku masih lagi 'kapel' dengan mamat B ni. Jadi tak lah dilayan mamat A tu. Tapi lepas 3 bulan, aku putus dengan mamat B. Masa tu memang frust menonggeng lah. Kan? Kanak kanak ribena. OK. Jadi dah mamat A ni terhegeh hegeh sangat. Aku pun kawan jelah dengan dia cuba nak lupakan mamat B tadi. Notation:: Wrong move. Aku salan\h. Patutnya aku tak patut kawan dengan sesapa lagi waktu tu. So. We start to hang out. Keluar dating unofficially. Dan lama lama kami 'kapel'. Tapi aku tak pernah setuju. Mamat A tu yang terang terang perasan ya amat. Tapi entah kenapa aku biarkan je kali ni. Dan nak dijadikan cerita lah sampai aku tak boleh nak lupakan dia walau pun sesaat. Pulak? Kan? 


Lama lama. Aku sampai tak boleh berpisah langsung dengan dia. Rasa macam nak lari pergi tidur rumah dia pun ada. Alhamdulillah lah tak jadi sampai macam tu. Minta simpang. Semakin lama kami berkawan, semakin berani dia minta enset yang baru aku beli, motor yang baru beli. Dia beri alasan yang dia tak boleh nak mesej atau call sebab enset dia rosak dan dia tak mampu nak beli. Motor bukan senang senang aku beri pun. Tapi sebab motor BAPAK dia tu selalu rosak dan malangnya aku mula selalu sangat sakit sampai tak boleh nak bawa motor. Macam alasan yang aku reka je kan? Terpulang lah nak percaya ke tak. So.


So. Sampai dah teruk. Kami dah habis SPM. Kami selalu bergaduh sebab aku selalu minta balik enset n motor aku. Dan jawapan dia,'Hang ni asyik salahkan aku ja. Takpelah, saya tak boleh nak jumpa awak dah sebab motor ayah rosak. Saya tak boleh nak call sebab ayah takde duit nak belikan enset baru.' Bullshit! Memang aku terpedaya. Aku memang tak nak beri langsung tapi, kerana keangauan tahap melampau sampaikan aku menangis tiap tiap malam sebab tu aku beri juga.


WAIT. Pernah tengok cerita Khurafat? Kan?


Sebenarnya cerita aku sama macam cerita tu. Benar. 100%. Tak lah aku ni pergi disko. Tak lah macam tu. Tapi hakikatnya macam tu lah. Tak bukan sebab cerita tu aku nak mereka cerita ni. Cerita aku ni berlaku way before cerita tu iklan kat tv. OK. 


Kakak kesayangan aku pun menghadapi nasib yang sama 12 tahun yang lalu. selepas 10 tahun kemudian baru Tuhan buka hatinya dan izinkan dia lepas dari genggaman syaitan tu. So. Kakak aku lah yang fes sekali perasan akan perubahan diri aku. So. Dia juga lah yang bawa aku pergi berubat. Thanks. Tanpa usaha kakak aku, tak mungkin aku akan kembali seperti sekarang. Sebab aku cerita ni nak bukakan mata kau, kau dan kau. Benda ini memang terjadi. Dah berpuluhan tahun memakan hidup family aku. Tapi kami tetap hepi. Sebab kami sentiasa bersabar. 


Berbalik pada cerita aku. Ye. Mamat A tu, telah gunakan pelbagai sihir. Makan, sapu minyak, jampi.
Aku ambil masa selama 5 bulan untuk pulih sepenuhnya. Dan sekarang pun masih lagi dalam proses pemulihan. Jadi, dengan ini, aku bukan nak minta simpati tetapi ingin mengingatkan gadis gadis yang di luar sana, beringatlah dan sentiasa berdoa kepada Tuhan memohon perlindungan. Insyaallah, akan dilindungi-Nya.

Every time that I hear a song that is being played by piano, I can't help but to listen to it more intentively than others. I just can't help it, major CANNOT help it. It's like my turf is going on here. I just love it. MAJORLY. A friend of mine asked me about few days ago, " Dude, you're like single for a very long time this time, what's going on? Don't tell me that you got hurt or just got out of a bad relationship. We both know that it seriously can't happen to YOU. I'm just saying." I was like, dude why is it wrong for me to not like go out with anybody?

Is it seriously that WRONG? I guess being the girl that always go out on a date or just hang out with an actual straight dude makes me seem weird, HAHA. Irony kicks in everybody.

Right now, I just don't see the point of going out with anybody. That's it, nothing serious. Like I'm gonna tell you guys about it anyways. (LOL) Or more like interesting guys to hang with, just for that reason I've been keeping to myself since the last 3 to 4 months, a record for a wild girl like me. Or maybe that it's just that I've grown up a bit. The fact that I can at least make a sensible decisions for once in my life. YEHOO!

I just want to see the world and fall in love with what I do. I just want to see the thing that made me, ME again. I know that if I go travelling, I know that I'm gonna find it again. Love for the world and food, especially food.

There is really no exact explanation for why I'm just the way I am right now. It's still a mystery and I like it that way. Let it be just the way that it was destined to be.

P.S.:: I think I'm gonna post about my secret crush later, If only I feel like it.

Piano

So since I've started to learn playing the piano, there have been multiple pleasant and unpleasant feelings that overwhelms me. I got to admit it, it ain't easy when it comes to playing the piano. It has been a great challenge. To tell you the truth, I kind of hate the fact that I have to try really hard just to be able to play a piece. But at the end of the day, it was all worth it. I never had to work really hard, things just come to me naturally, easy. Yea, it's a freaking fairy tale but it's how I've been learning. I didn't need to work hard at all. I just have to understand it and just kind of learn it by myself.


Well, till now, my goal is to reach grade 2 in two weeks, and y'knw what? I think it's possible cause I have been able to play all the songs in grade 1 range already. So, the class is on Thursday and can't wait to see the results of my practice hours. YAY!

Opportunity

Finally, I got into the college I've always wanted to get in. I'm wondering whether this would be a good choice for me. Still scared the hell out of me after the latest experience of going to college. Hated it bur it's the only place I could ever start over. Right now I'm trying to make the best out of my time studying. I figured that maybe this time I would ever replace all of the lost time that I waste because I haven't had any idea of going forward or taking things seriously.

So I guess, that's it for now..